I feel bad. Like I said - am one of those who didn't get hit hard when they heard the news. Or better yet - I didn't until I started reading LJs. I care about the people I met through fandom big time. I went through a better part of life feeling like I was different. I had pretty much gotten used to it and arrived to the happy place where I didn't give a rat's ass about what people thought about me. Then BtVS fandom happened and presto! Not so weird anymore.
All of this to say it's the fandom aspect that hurts. I talked to people who have been in fandoms for ages and they tell me not to worry. Fan fics get written, conventions get organized and it goes on. I don't want to sound like I'm dismissive, because I'm not.
I'm just trying to tell myself that it isn't over because the WB says so. That there's too much talent and close bonds in this fandom for it to just go poof!
I need some sleep also.