I'm having the same problem finding decent Brian/Michael fic. And I'm so very sick of reading Brian/Justin.
I totally agree about the darkness of Brian/Michael. I guess part of my problem finding good fic is that I like darkness--it's part of life, it's real, it's interesting. I don't think the goal of every story out there should be to "fix" everything, get Brian to "talk about his feelings" and put him on Prozac and marry him off. Real life isn't so simple or easily resolved, and good stories can show real relationships that aren't perfect, real people with real problems that can't be resolved, but who still manage to live their lives anyway. And that's a hell of a lot more interesting than some perfect little fantasy.
And well, also, I like the angst, and when you get down to it, Brian/Michael is so angst-ridden. Like you said, the mind games and possessiveness and co-dependency. I probably wouldn't be interested if that's all there was, but combine that fucked-up-ness with the genuine love that's all mixed in and you get something so interesting and real.
I'm always more fascinated by beautiful things that arise in the midst of darkness, rather than just beautiful things on their own. Something about the contrast, or the realism, or that it's more of a struggle, I'm not sure. But I think the way that Brian and Michael connect so deeply, despite all their problems and issues, is really lovely to see.
Heh. And I do agree completely with how you imagine them apart--Michael in Deb's basement and Brian dead. (I'm astounded by how easily Brian/Justin writers just cluelessly dismiss the importance of those two to each other.)
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I totally agree about the darkness of Brian/Michael. I guess part of my problem finding good fic is that I like darkness--it's part of life, it's real, it's interesting. I don't think the goal of every story out there should be to "fix" everything, get Brian to "talk about his feelings" and put him on Prozac and marry him off. Real life isn't so simple or easily resolved, and good stories can show real relationships that aren't perfect, real people with real problems that can't be resolved, but who still manage to live their lives anyway. And that's a hell of a lot more interesting than some perfect little fantasy.
And well, also, I like the angst, and when you get down to it, Brian/Michael is so angst-ridden. Like you said, the mind games and possessiveness and co-dependency. I probably wouldn't be interested if that's all there was, but combine that fucked-up-ness with the genuine love that's all mixed in and you get something so interesting and real.
I'm always more fascinated by beautiful things that arise in the midst of darkness, rather than just beautiful things on their own. Something about the contrast, or the realism, or that it's more of a struggle, I'm not sure. But I think the way that Brian and Michael connect so deeply, despite all their problems and issues, is really lovely to see.
Heh. And I do agree completely with how you imagine them apart--Michael in Deb's basement and Brian dead. (I'm astounded by how easily Brian/Justin writers just cluelessly dismiss the importance of those two to each other.)