rusty_halo: bowie: ziggy onstage flames (bowie: ziggy onstage flames)
2030-03-27 08:59 pm


This is a fandom journal containing mostly meta, squee, and recs.

Comments are wonderful. Feel free to add/remove me from your circle whenever you like.

I'm also on Tumblr.

I work too much these days and don't post as often as I'd like.

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rusty_halo: (btvs: spike/dru: bronze)
2017-06-10 01:55 pm

Buffy Fan Reunion 2017

Inspired by the 20th anniversary of "Buffy the Vampire Slayer," a few old friends from Buffy fandom began reminiscing, and before we knew it, we'd decided to get together and catch up in real life. We'll be having a Buffy fan reunion in New Orleans this summer, July 7-9. 

A few of the places we know each other from: BAPS, Spike's Salvation, BA_Gutter, Sparklies, We Band of Buggered, All About Spike, Writercon, LiveJournal, etc etc etc. The core organizers organized the Writercon conventions back in the day.
The event will be informal - just a bunch of old friends catching up.  We've chosen a hotel with areas to hang out and talk, and a city with much to explore.  All are welcome regardless of whether still into fandom or not.

You'll find registration info & details at

Would love to have more people along. :) 

rusty_halo: my cat lucifer (l: lucifer)
2017-03-11 09:51 pm

Boozy Weekend Buffy Fan Reunion

So this is random but - prompted by the 20th anniversary of Buffy, a few of us began reminiscing and before we knew it, we decided we wanted to get together and catch up in real life.

[personal profile] chrisjournal & I are loosely organizing it - by loosely I mean we are just setting up a survey to gauge interest & preferred date/location, and will then set it up with the hotel. No programming, just a bunch of old friends sitting around the pool catching up.

If you are interested, here's the survey! Feel free to share with other friends from that era who may also be interested.

(This is the generally people who knew each other from BAPS, Spike's Salvation, BA_Gutter, Sparklies, We Band of Buggered, All About Spike, Writercon, LiveJournal, etc etc. Please pass it along to other friends from that era.)
rusty_halo: my cat lucifer (l: lucifer)
2017-02-22 11:01 pm
2013-08-22 08:10 pm
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Boy Witch/Macbeth!

Actual Sleep No More fanfiction! ♥ ♥ ♥

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2013-08-05 10:25 pm

(no subject)

I wrote an emotionally revealing thing on Tumblr.

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2013-08-02 04:15 pm

feeling sane in comparison…

“I once tried to explain to one of the Boy Witch performers (I won’t name names) just why I was so infatuated with his performance. I kept trying to convey that it was not his penis, but the Boy Witch EYES that I am drawn to— you know, the way Boy Witch sucks you in and seduces you with that sideways, under the floppy hair glance that says I own you and I know you want me and you WILL follow me. I mean, I was so earnest, but even mentioning the penis made me sound like an idiot. And a perv. But I really wanted to convey that it had nothing to do with the nudity. And the more I tried to explain it, the more embarrassing it became.”


OMG Sleep No More fandom.

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2013-07-30 10:42 pm

1:1 magic

But for the rest of the evening, and into the next day, and the day after, a small, perverse part of my subconscious is still thinking about that moment, about that dance, about that kiss, those parting words. I know it’s all an act, and I am one of many lucky people who will leave the show having experienced a spine-tingly one-on-one experience. I am not unique. But there’s still a piece of me that doesn’t want to let go of the few short minutes when The Drowned Man stopped being a spectacle to be watched, and instead became something I was part of. It lit up something inside me that’s left me feeling dreamy and open and weirdly, unexpectedly giddy.

– From raspberry beret girl

See, I’m not the only one!

In my least generous moments, I think Punchdrunk is pretty much evil for luring people in like this. (She says as she contemplates booking another ticket to London…)

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2013-06-22 09:52 pm


I miss you guys. I feel like this is the only place on the Internet that I can write my honest feelings.

It’s my last day before I leave London and I’m suddenly feeling so overwhelmed and sad.

I wrote on Tumblr about tonight’s show, that it was magical to me, and it was, but it’s like the evil inverse of a wonderful artistic experience is the awful comedown back to reality. Plus all this self-doubt and feeling like I’m stupid and my reactions are all wrong.

I can’t be anyone other than who I am. Obviously I’m biased; I came here to see performers who I already think are wonderful. And I honestly thought they were wonderful here. I felt so glad to see them.

In the end, I don’t know what I want out of this. It’s so much easier with music; I’ve never wondered what the point is with music. But then I’ve never spent thousands of dollars to fly across the ocean for music.

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2013-06-21 07:46 pm


I’m blogging my Drowned Man adventures on my Tumblr btw.

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2013-03-31 11:51 pm
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Lucky #27

My “edited for Tumblr” version of last night’s Sleep No More recap.

This one made me so happy and might be the last really special one.

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2013-03-31 09:55 pm
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Sleep No More & the visibility of the audience to the characters

Sorry just one more SNM thing.

It struck me last night, and never really hit me before – the moments Macbeth and Lady Macbeth see the audience. I’ve followed Lady Macbeth a few times recently (Tori Sparks twice right before she left, and Omagbitse Omagbemi Friday night) and then three-looped Macbeth last night, so the parallels between them were fresh in my mind.

For the first half of their loop, the Macbeths are completely oblivious to the audience. They don’t see or interact with us at all.

It starts when Macbeth kills Duncan. As he runs back to the Macbeth bedroom with the blood on his hands, he stops under a light and turns around and the audience sees the blood on his hands. But he’s not doing this just to show his hands to the audience. He looks at us. For the first time, he sees us. Like we are these lurking supernatural creatures, visible to him now because of the horror he’s committed.

Then after Lady Macbeth bathes him, they both huddle on the bed, and for a moment they both seem to see us. They look at us with a kind of vague horror, like they can suddenly see the wisps of us appearing out of the ether around them.

It’s like by committing the murder, they are corrupted, evil, and now they can see us. We are ghosts, spirits, supernatural creatures. The sane characters can’t see us – the only other characters who see us are the supernatural ones (the witches, Hecate, and Hecate’s thrall the Speakeasy Barman).

I think it’s also a sign of their increasing insanity.


Macbeth runs upstairs to the rave, stops at the top of the fourth floor to put his socks and shoes on, stands up, and then has this moment where he looks at the audience. He can see us clearly, and is suspicious and horrified and kind of ecstatically crazed by our appearance. He sees us during the rave, too – we’re in a circle around the witches and Macbeth doing their prophecy/orgy, like we are these ethereal ghosts coming out of the same spaces from which the witches themselves emerge.

Meanwhile Lady Macbeth stays on the bed and does this writhing dance trying to get the blood off her hands, and she too can see us. When she walks up to the fourth floor to greet Macbeth after he finishes the rave and kills Banquo, she is now grabbing the audience members, clutching them, whispering lines from the play to them. She also sees us during her final walk up to the fifth floor insane asylum – the nurse strips her and puts her in the bath, and then she climbs out, naked and alone, and reaches out to us in a kind of insane broken daze.

It’s so freaking cool how this show is structured.

And it’s so ridiculous to read those reviews from people saying “This had nothing to do with Macbeth” or “This made no sense.” Nonsense. It’s transformative – it turns “Macbeth” inside out and interprets it through a very different medium, but it is so deeply engaged with the text.

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2013-03-19 12:24 am
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Fandom migration

I am mainly posting on Tumblr these days. Sigh.

I’ll still be on Dreamwidth/LJ/ for the foreseeable future (friendslock is invaluable, and many of my good friends are here) but I’m also there.

If you have a Tumblr, let me know. I hate to lose track of people.

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2013-03-10 09:48 pm
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Sleep No More wishlist

On December 28, I had what was, in retrospect, one of the best Sleep No More shows I would ever have. And I posted a wishlist for future shows. Here is the original list, and the results.

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2013-02-20 10:30 pm

Web developer (frontend or WordPress/Drupal)?

My friend is looking for a web developer to convert her custom-written PHP site into WordPress or Drupal. She’s an independent fashion designer and very visually-oriented, so good frontend CSS/HTML skills are important. She has a portfolio site with a few products (hooking up to PayPal to check out) and wants to be able to update the content via CMS.

If you can help or know anyone who can help, please write to me at laura at rusty-halo dot com and I’ll send her your info. She’s very sweet and easy to work with. :)

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2013-02-20 09:06 pm

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See I look at photos like this and I’m like “how is this a real place I was actually at and not just a dream”?

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2013-02-17 04:42 pm
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I hate everything that I write.

Like this. I was trying to figure out how to take the “I”s and “me”s out, but I couldn’t. I wanted to write about why Paul is amazing, not about the impact Paul had on me personally, which is irrelevant. But I couldn’t separate the two; everything became generic and weirdly removed when I took out the “I”s and “me”s.

But with them in, it’s like, god, so narcissistic and who fucking cares.

I was crying as I wrote the post – it’s trying to describe something that meant so much to me – but when I read it, the emotion isn’t there at all. I don’t understand. I feel these things so intensely, but I can’t communicate them at all.

I’m going to make a filter for my overly personal Sleep No More posts so I can stop spamming you guys. Please comment if you want to be on it. (I might still post the generic ones publicly, sorry.)

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