rusty_halo

Fri, 10 Aug 2018 22:37:44 GMT

I am simultaneously thrilled to be at the final VividCon and having a difficult time connecting because I've been out of fandom for so long.

Just in case... If anyone out there 1) is at VividCon and 2) remembers me, please be in touch :)

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Buffy Fan Reunion 2017

Sat, 10 Jun 2017 18:06:37 GMT

Inspired by the 20th anniversary of "Buffy the Vampire Slayer," a few old friends from Buffy fandom began reminiscing, and before we knew it, we'd decided to get together and catch up in real life. We'll be having a Buffy fan reunion in New Orleans this summer, July 7-9.

A few of the places we know each other from: BAPS, Spike's Salvation, BA_Gutter, Sparklies, We Band of Buggered, All About Spike, Writercon, LiveJournal, etc etc etc. The core organizers organized the Writercon conventions back in the day.

The event will be informal - just a bunch of old friends catching up. We've chosen a hotel with areas to hang out and talk, and a city with much to explore. All are welcome regardless of whether still into fandom or not.

You'll find registration info & details at https://goo.gl/forms/wiARlnuCbQeyIws33

Would love to have more people along. :)

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Boozy Weekend Buffy Fan Reunion

Sun, 12 Mar 2017 02:54:14 GMT

So this is random but - prompted by the 20th anniversary of Buffy, a few of us began reminiscing and before we knew it, we decided we wanted to get together and catch up in real life.

chrisjournal & I are loosely organizing it - by loosely I mean we are just setting up a survey to gauge interest & preferred date/location, and will then set it up with the hotel. No programming, just a bunch of old friends sitting around the pool catching up.

If you are interested, here's the survey! Feel free to share with other friends from that era who may also be interested.

(This is the generally people who knew each other from BAPS, Spike's Salvation, BA_Gutter, Sparklies, We Band of Buggered, All About Spike, Writercon, LiveJournal, etc etc. Please pass it along to other friends from that era.)

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Thu, 23 Feb 2017 04:06:40 GMT

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Weekend of The Drowned Man

Thu, 05 Sep 2013 17:47:37 GMT

One of the best experiences of my life.

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Boy Witch/Macbeth!

Fri, 23 Aug 2013 00:10:26 GMT

Actual Sleep No More fanfiction! ♥ ♥ ♥

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Tue, 06 Aug 2013 02:25:17 GMT

I wrote an emotionally revealing thing on Tumblr.

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feeling sane in comparison…

Fri, 02 Aug 2013 20:15:11 GMT

“I once tried to explain to one of the Boy Witch performers (I won’t name names) just why I was so infatuated with his performance. I kept trying to convey that it was not his penis, but the Boy Witch EYES that I am drawn to— you know, the way Boy Witch sucks you in and seduces you with that sideways, under the floppy hair glance that says I own you and I know you want me and you WILL follow me. I mean, I was so earnest, but even mentioning the penis made me sound like an idiot. And a perv. But I really wanted to convey that it had nothing to do with the nudity. And the more I tried to explain it, the more embarrassing it became.”

(source)

OMG Sleep No More fandom.

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1:1 magic

Wed, 31 Jul 2013 02:42:46 GMT

But for the rest of the evening, and into the next day, and the day after, a small, perverse part of my subconscious is still thinking about that moment, about that dance, about that kiss, those parting words. I know it’s all an act, and I am one of many lucky people who will leave the show having experienced a spine-tingly one-on-one experience. I am not unique. But there’s still a piece of me that doesn’t want to let go of the few short minutes when The Drowned Man stopped being a spectacle to be watched, and instead became something I was part of. It lit up something inside me that’s left me feeling dreamy and open and weirdly, unexpectedly giddy.

– From raspberry beret girl

See, I’m not the only one!

In my least generous moments, I think Punchdrunk is pretty much evil for luring people in like this. (She says as she contemplates booking another ticket to London…)

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London

Sun, 23 Jun 2013 01:52:26 GMT

I miss you guys. I feel like this is the only place on the Internet that I can write my honest feelings.

It’s my last day before I leave London and I’m suddenly feeling so overwhelmed and sad.

I wrote on Tumblr about tonight’s show, that it was magical to me, and it was, but it’s like the evil inverse of a wonderful artistic experience is the awful comedown back to reality. Plus all this self-doubt and feeling like I’m stupid and my reactions are all wrong.

I can’t be anyone other than who I am. Obviously I’m biased; I came here to see performers who I already think are wonderful. And I honestly thought they were wonderful here. I felt so glad to see them.

In the end, I don’t know what I want out of this. It’s so much easier with music; I’ve never wondered what the point is with music. But then I’ve never spent thousands of dollars to fly across the ocean for music.

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London!

Fri, 21 Jun 2013 23:46:43 GMT

I’m blogging my Drowned Man adventures on my Tumblr btw.

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Yesterday was my two-year “Sleep No More” anniversary

Thu, 18 Apr 2013 02:42:49 GMT

Retrospective upon the two year anniversary of my first visit to “Sleep No More”

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Recap, condensed

Sat, 06 Apr 2013 23:23:04 GMT

Tumblr-friendly version of last night’s Sleep No More recap.

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Lucky #27

Mon, 01 Apr 2013 03:51:28 GMT

My “edited for Tumblr” version of last night’s Sleep No More recap.

This one made me so happy and might be the last really special one.

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Fandom migration

Tue, 19 Mar 2013 04:24:32 GMT

I am mainly posting on Tumblr these days. Sigh.

I’ll still be on Dreamwidth/LJ/rusty-halo.com for the foreseeable future (friendslock is invaluable, and many of my good friends are here) but I’m also there.

If you have a Tumblr, let me know. I hate to lose track of people.

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Web developer (frontend or WordPress/Drupal)?

Thu, 21 Feb 2013 02:30:37 GMT

My friend is looking for a web developer to convert her custom-written PHP site into WordPress or Drupal. She’s an independent fashion designer and very visually-oriented, so good frontend CSS/HTML skills are important. She has a portfolio site with a few products (hooking up to PayPal to check out) and wants to be able to update the content via CMS.

If you can help or know anyone who can help, please write to me at laura at rusty-halo dot com and I’ll send her your info. She’s very sweet and easy to work with. :)

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Thu, 21 Feb 2013 01:06:12 GMT

See I look at photos like this and I’m like “how is this a real place I was actually at and not just a dream”?

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(no subject)

Sun, 17 Feb 2013 20:42:32 GMT

I hate everything that I write.

Like this. I was trying to figure out how to take the “I”s and “me”s out, but I couldn’t. I wanted to write about why Paul is amazing, not about the impact Paul had on me personally, which is irrelevant. But I couldn’t separate the two; everything became generic and weirdly removed when I took out the “I”s and “me”s.

But with them in, it’s like, god, so narcissistic and who fucking cares.

I was crying as I wrote the post – it’s trying to describe something that meant so much to me – but when I read it, the emotion isn’t there at all. I don’t understand. I feel these things so intensely, but I can’t communicate them at all.

I’m going to make a filter for my overly personal Sleep No More posts so I can stop spamming you guys. Please comment if you want to be on it. (I might still post the generic ones publicly, sorry.)

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looking in the wrong places

Sun, 17 Feb 2013 18:00:31 GMT

I get so emotionally invested in things where I am irrelevant and invisible.

I can count on one hand the number of times I’ve been as emotionally invested in something going on in my own life as I get with fandoms.

I’ve tried making fandoms into my life, but that has never really worked. I am always on the outside, trying to be somewhere where there is no need for me to be.

I guess the alternative is to organically live life in a way that isn’t oriented around fandoms? So that I can emotionally engage with real things where I might have an actual role to play?

“Be yourself” and “follow your heart” has always led me to fandoms, though. Is that wrong?

I find it hard to believe I will somehow find an engaging life by forcing myself to do stuff I don’t want to do, because I’d rather be at home reading Loki fanfic or staring at Sleep No More actors from a balcony.

I should try doing something creative and social. Where there are straight men around. But what?

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Missing the McKittrick

Mon, 04 Feb 2013 04:38:48 GMT

Some people talk about their Sleep No More visits being followed by an immediate crash. I don’t have that – I usually get about a week of euphoria afterward. The crash from last Monday is just hitting me now on Sunday night. I miss it there.

I realized my attendance count is off.

Last time I checked, I counted 13 cards and 13 entries in my order history at sleepnomorenyc.com, so I assumed I’d been 13 times, despite a mysterious mental count of 14.

But last night I remembered that one time I went in without a card, because I lost track of time drinking at Gallow Green and was rushed in late. (Nice lady just handed me a mask and sent me in without checking my ticket or anything.)

And one time I bought a ticket which wouldn’t show in my order history, because I got in on a waitlist to a special night (I think Remixed) and they asked for my credit card via email, which is dangerous, so I called and gave it to them over the phone.

So my mental count of 14 back then was right … which means I’ve been 17 times now.

And I already have 18, 19, 20, and 21 booked. :)

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SNM actor vs character

Mon, 04 Feb 2013 04:32:42 GMT

I like that other people worry about the same things I do.

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Sun, 27 Jan 2013 18:57:19 GMT

I’ve been reading Valerie’s original fiction. She was so talented. I wish I’d told her how much I admired her.

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The Valerie Lewis Memorial Award for Excellence in Creative Writing

Sun, 27 Jan 2013 05:33:20 GMT

talula728: The Valerie Lewis Memorial Award for Excellence in Creative Writing:

As a tribute, we have set up The Valerie Lewis Memorial Award for Excellence in Creative Writing. In this way, her life’s work and her influence on her students can continue. Checks can be made out to Mercy College, memo: Valerie Lewis Memorial Award and mailed to Mercy College, English Program, English Program, c/o Frances Biscoglio, 555 Broadway, Dobbs Ferry, NY 10522. This information will be in her obituary but I have had so many people asking if there’s something they can and so wanted to get this information out there. I am so proud of my sister for always doing the work she loved and teaching with the same enthusiasm and uniqueness of her character. She never gave up on a student and she was always so excited when they made progress and began to share her love for writing. I know this award can never replace her impact on future students, but I hope in some small way it keeps her influence in this world. Please pass this on to others as you can.

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Valerie

Sat, 26 Jan 2013 05:29:50 GMT

talula728 posted that her sister valerie_z has passed away.

I am heartbroken. Valerie was one of my favorite people in fandom. I met her because I archived some of her stories on my Spike fanfiction archive. We only met in person once, but I loved knowing her online.

I remember reading her story “Super Food World” out loud to my mother, a decade ago, because I thought it was so funny and moving and wanted to share how much I loved it. We hadn’t interacted much in the past few years, but I always read her posts. She was so smart, talented, funny, and honest.