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I hate everything that I write.

Like this. I was trying to figure out how to take the “I”s and “me”s out, but I couldn’t. I wanted to write about why Paul is amazing, not about the impact Paul had on me personally, which is irrelevant. But I couldn’t separate the two; everything became generic and weirdly removed when I took out the “I”s and “me”s.

But with them in, it’s like, god, so narcissistic and who fucking cares.

I was crying as I wrote the post – it’s trying to describe something that meant so much to me – but when I read it, the emotion isn’t there at all. I don’t understand. I feel these things so intensely, but I can’t communicate them at all.

I’m going to make a filter for my overly personal Sleep No More posts so I can stop spamming you guys. Please comment if you want to be on it. (I might still post the generic ones publicly, sorry.)

Originally published at rusty-halo.com. You can comment here or there.

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I like reading all of your Sleep No More posts.

I wish you could come here and we could go together.

(I would be so sad if you didn't like it, though!)

I would almost certainly find it interesting, just based upon your descriptions. Also, it's full of slender, big-eyed men with high cheekbones, so even if I didn't like the play, I could enjoy the scenery. :)

I don't know when I'll make it out of Florida again, though. I'm moving this summer, and that's going to take all of my discretionary cash. :(

I enjoy the Sleep No More posts!

Thanks! Added you. :)

I enjoy reading them too, so put me on the filter.

Thank you! I added you. :)

Yes, please!

Added you. Thanks for being interested! :)

I want to read all of the posts, so do please include me.

Hey, thanks so much for your interest. :)

Do you mind telling me a bit about yourself and why you're interested? Have you ever seen the show?

I was drawn in by your talk of writing the post you linked. I enjoy reading about media written by people passionate about their subject. As for the show, I've heard of it -- probably through reading your posts, actually -- and it sounds fascinating. I wonder if I'll ever experience it, though. I'm mildly intimidated by the format, though I'm irritated at myself for feeling so. I'd prefer not to go alone. And the cost of a trip to NYC is a factor.

As for me, I'm just a fannish person on the earth, enjoying the media and the fanfic and the sense of community of reading and commenting on dreamwidth.

Cool, I added you. :)

I just asked because everyone else who commented here are people I've known for years. I'd like the filter to be a place where I can say what I really think and be as weird as I really am without worrying about scaring people away!

Ha! Not easily scared away by weird, and I'm appreciative of frank opinions.

I wish I both had more time and opportunity to see theater. I might be taking a trip to NYC for other reasons. That might be a good opportunity to see something. In the meantime I like reading about it.

I definitely recommend the seeing the show if you're coming to NYC. I'd be happy to go with you if you like. :) But it's really an individual experience and not that intimidating. Most people I know who were afraid to go actually got into it and ventured off on their own very quickly.

Email me. I might actually be in NYC soon if you're sincere about attending a show. kingtouchy at gmail

Please keep me on the SNM filter. It sounds fascinating, and I would love to go someday.

Added you. Thanks for being interested.

And you should totally go! :)

*hugs*

You know I want to be on ALL THE FILTERS.

I put you on already. *hugs*

Can't wait to see you - it's coming up soon! :)

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I triple-checked and you're definitely on my SNM filter on Dreamwidth. Are you still unable to see the posts here? If so I'm really sorry - it must be something technical as I really appreciate your comments and definitely don't want to exclude you.

Okay, now I can see them. Maybe it was a temporary glitch?

Cool. :)

lol loser. OF COURSE I WANT IN ON IT. you know, for how often i'm here...

And I'm sure you know that I already added you without you having to ask. :P

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