It kind of scares me how emotional I get about some of this stuff, still. I feel kind of guilty, because if I directed these strong emotions toward like, social causes or something, maybe I could make the world a better place. Instead I argue on the internet about fictional vampires. But it does help me to understand why I think what I think, so I suppose that's valuable--self-awareness, and all.
But it bothers me that I get so upset over this stuff. It's just a TV show, and it's over, and nothing I say will change anything. But sometimes my whole day can get ruined because I'm sad over something that happened to Spike.
Once, when I was ten or eleven, I read a series of V.C. Andrews novels and cried myself to sleep for a week afterward because I was so upset about what happened to one of the characters. So I suppose being over-involved in fiction is nothing new. Probably not very healthy, though. Maybe it strikes too close to something really personal, and I'm trying to deal with real personal issues through the lense of the fiction that mirrors them?
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Date: 2003-10-15 05:01 am (UTC)But it bothers me that I get so upset over this stuff. It's just a TV show, and it's over, and nothing I say will change anything. But sometimes my whole day can get ruined because I'm sad over something that happened to Spike.
Once, when I was ten or eleven, I read a series of V.C. Andrews novels and cried myself to sleep for a week afterward because I was so upset about what happened to one of the characters. So I suppose being over-involved in fiction is nothing new. Probably not very healthy, though. Maybe it strikes too close to something really personal, and I'm trying to deal with real personal issues through the lense of the fiction that mirrors them?
Just thinking out loud. Er, onscreen. Sorry.