I’m Still in the Grip of a Complete Obsession with Supernatural

GIP (icon is from here by temporalranger).

I had an awesome Memorial Day weekend. My friend Cat surprised me with a visit on Friday night and after listening to me babble about the pretty boys agreed to watch Supernatural with me. We watched 1×21, 1×22, and 2×01. She thought it was too melodramatic (dude, that’s the point) and she couldn’t stop laughing at Jared Padalecki’s line readings, but she also couldn’t stop mentioning how cute Dean is and she insisted on watching 2×01 because she wanted to know what happened next. :)

Then on Sunday, soundingsea came to visit, which was totally and completely awesome. We were going to watch an episode, but we were having so much fun talking that we couldn’t really interrupt ourselves for 42 minutes, so instead we watched fanvids and played each other songs that reminded us of the show. We drank a bottle of white wine and ate brownies and she stayed over until 1am and it was so fun and I wish she lived closer!

Anyway, I haven’t been posting because I’ve been immersed in a sea of Supernatural fanwork. I haven’t been in a fandom this rich with good content since Buffy.

Yesterday was officially the day when I got the Sam/Dean thing. I’ve been reading everything good that I can get my hands on–jolielaide sent me an amazing recs list, and I’ve been following various other links and recs. I just somehow went from “I’m kind of squicked by the incest thing but I’m reading for the delicious Dean angst and the awesome writing” to “OMG SAM/DEAN! THEY LOVE EACH OTHER SO MUCH! AND I LOVE THEM SO MUCH!!” It wasn’t one story that changed my mind–just the cumulative effect. (I still don’t really see any sexual subtext in canon, but whatever, the emotional codependency is there with or without the erotic component.) Also I still can’t quite believe that I actually said to myself, “You are missing out on a whole lot of awesome fic just because you have a silly old-fashioned incest squick–you should try to get over that” and then did. (Whatever, they’re consenting adults and, oh yeah, fictional.)

Then I’ve been having kind of an identity crisis because Sam/Dean is hot, but Dean/Castiel is so hot too–what do I do? And then I realized, oh yeah, I CAN READ BOTH AND THAT DOUBLES THE AMOUNT OF FIC I GET TO READ. This fandom is awesome! I ship the two biggest ships! This has never happened to me before.

I’m still not feeling the RPS thing, but… Jared and Jensen once moved in together? Seriously?

I have nearly 200 tabs open in Firefox, which include dozens of half-read stories, all of which are good and worth reading. There are just so many! I’m also trying to read every (decently-written) post-Devil’s Trap fic that I can get my hands on, because that was such a perfect cliffhanger for inspiring a summer of hurt/comfort.

I’ve discovered the Supernatural wiki, which is awesome–I’m hitting near-TV Tropes level of absorption. John’s journal is fascinating, and I’m pretty sure that more than half of these crack scenarios have actually happened in canon.

There’s a Supernatural NYC MeetUp group and they’re having a marathon of Dean episodes on Saturday. I… don’t exactly have the highest opinion of MeetUp.com but the prospect of watching Supernatural episodes with other real life humans is incredibly alluring. Also I would totally go to Wincon if it wasn’t right around the same time I’ll be in Paris for LeSpit. :(

netweight pointed me to a vid of Misha Collins on slash: “I think it is a great cultural asset. It unites the world.”

I could become such a fan of this guy. He is cuter than Bambi. I read the entire archive of his tweets and didn’t get bored, which clearly means I have lost my mind.

I need to stop watching things that make me choke from trying not to laugh. I’m pretty sure this is the crackiest fandom ever. (Also, I still can’t get past the fact that Becky writes Wincest in canon. I went frame-by-frame to read her story last night and it’s hurt/comfort Wincest at that!)

I’ve hit season five in my SPN rewatch. (I’m thinking of buying a Blu-Ray player so that I can get the show in HD without the stupid network bug and intrusive ad graphics.) It’s very different the second time–themes and ambiguities and parallels and inconsistencies all become apparent when you know the whole story. I’ve been writing little meta thoughts that I might try to turn into real posts someday, if I can tear myself away from fic and vids long enough.

Also OH MY GOD FRECKLES AND PRETTY EYES. *hyperventilates*

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