This is a hard one to work through, I say from experience...
The way you describe feeling about music in your early and mid-teens, I was that way from about 12 years old until about 23. It was just everything in the world to me, took me away from everything that I hated and gave me solace. The music I listened to was vastly different than what you got into, though - for me I wanted stuff to entertain me rather than make me think. I thought too much as it was. I just wanted stuff to make me smile and dance and have fun, I wasn't into music with messages. That was just the era, though...
Then it all fell apart for me when I was 23, and I never got it back. For a few years I really mourned it; I really missed the innocence of it all, the newness and the excitement. And I sometimes still do. But only sometimes now. Now I'm glad I'm older and I know what I know, have been through what I've been through.
Hopefully you'll get there at some point too. No problem looking back and missing something, but letting it hinder you from accepting that it's in the past and moving forward to something else could be a bit of a problem.
Which, by the way, I don't see happening to you. :oD
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Date: 2004-10-13 08:53 pm (UTC)The way you describe feeling about music in your early and mid-teens, I was that way from about 12 years old until about 23. It was just everything in the world to me, took me away from everything that I hated and gave me solace. The music I listened to was vastly different than what you got into, though - for me I wanted stuff to entertain me rather than make me think. I thought too much as it was. I just wanted stuff to make me smile and dance and have fun, I wasn't into music with messages. That was just the era, though...
Then it all fell apart for me when I was 23, and I never got it back. For a few years I really mourned it; I really missed the innocence of it all, the newness and the excitement. And I sometimes still do. But only sometimes now. Now I'm glad I'm older and I know what I know, have been through what I've been through.
Hopefully you'll get there at some point too. No problem looking back and missing something, but letting it hinder you from accepting that it's in the past and moving forward to something else could be a bit of a problem.
Which, by the way, I don't see happening to you. :oD