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[rusty_halo]

Saw Common Rotation last night at psubrat's house. They were excellent, and it was very kind of psubrat to have everyone over. (Thank you, psubrat, for having us! And thank you chenanceou and jerrymcl89 for bringing me and soulmate815 along with you.)

It feels very strange (in a good way) to be sitting on someone's living room floor with a bunch of your friends, watching a band play immediately in front of you. Especially when one of those band members played a sociopathic sexbot builder on a show you used to be obsessed with. It's just ... a surreal experience.

Tons of people were there; it was wonderful to see everyone. I miss them all already. I'm very glad to know that, between WriterCon, Vulkon Oakland, DragonCon, and London, I'll be seeing nearly everyone again before the year is over.

(The car ride totally killed me, unfortunately, so I'm sorry if I wasn't great company. I'm especially sorry for ignoring everyone on the car ride back, but I really just had to zone out and pretend I was somewhere else.)

I feel so utterly dead today, but I'm going to try to see Common Ro again tonight anyway. I'm going to guzzle a couple of those energy drinks and then rush from work to catch the LIRR out to this park in Long Island where they're playing free. (Nice thing about the LIRR? Trains usually don't make me motion sick.) I just need an excuse to have road-trip adventure type things, y'know? And Common Ro is as good an excuse as any....

And, off topic, have I mentioned how annoyed I am that my brain insists on Sirius Black as a new obsession? It's really not good. I mean, yes, fascinating character, and wonderful fic, and a large fan community ... but ... I spend the whole time on the verge of tears! And the littlest things are liable to push me over the edge -- like the icon on this post [ETA: the icon on this page, top left, labelled "harry>>death>>unknown"] as I was scanning my friends list. Everyone at work must think I have really bad allergies, as I sit at work with tears periodically streaming down my face throughout the day.

(It's weird, how emotional I get over fictional things. It's not that I can't separate fantasy from reality. It's more like, when I get upset about some sad thing that happened in fiction, I always think about how, given all of human history, similar horrible things have happened to real people. And it's so sad and unfair!!! And so on.)

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[wickedprincess3.livejournal.com]

Ack I'm sorry :(
Though yeah I get the emotional attachment to characters thing, it's weird but oh I do it (I caught the end of a s2 Buffy ep this morning with Cordelia in it and started tearing up and had to change the channel *fast*)

I also just saw your post from the other day about liking Sirius and R/S. I am a Sirius fangirl far more than Remus (I like him as well but Sirius is in my top three "please don't make me chose one" characters with Harry and Ginny). I think he's a fascinating character. Someone that came from such a horrid family and used to be such a horrid person that does go through the horrors of Azkaban and changes and there is so much there.

I really thought Hagrid was the one that was going to die in OotP, he was at that point useless and more hindrance than help (I like Hagrid and get that he serves a storytelling purpose but his death would have made more sense for me).

[rusty_halo.livejournal.com]

Don't apologize; it's a nice icon. (JKR, otoh? She can apologize.)

Glad to hear you're another Sirius fangirl. Awesome. :) He really is fascinating, like you said, there's so much going on with him. Layers and layers to explore.

I was *praying* that Hagrid would die as I read book 5. I figured it was either him or Sirius (and I kept thinking, look, she's setting up so much for Sirius, how stupid would it be to kill him now with his arc barely begun???) jaydk reassures me that Sirius' death will have meaning because it'll provide a valuable lesson to Harry, but dude, I don't give a fuck about Harry's life lessons! Not when Sirius is dead!

It's cool that you like other characters. My tendency, when I really like a character, is to see everything completely through that character. So nothing is really very interesting anymore unless it relates to him. It's a pretty horrible way to be a fan, unless you're a fan of a main character, because no matter what, the supporting characters always have to bow to the main plot and main character's arc.

But, dammit, 99% of the time main characters are black and white and boring; only the supporting characters are allowed to really be grey and fucked up and deeply interesting. So I get enthralled by these supporting characters and then it breaks my heart when their arcs get overridden by the "real" story.

This is why I love George R.R. Martin's A Song of Ice and Fire series. It's an ensemble, so Jaime Lannister gets his chance for a great arc that deals in depth with him as a character and his personal growth. The overall story isn't about him, but he doesn't get short-shafted in favor of more "important" stories.

But, y'know, no one is writing Jaime Lannister fanfiction! Possibly because the books are incredibly thick, and the series is unfinished, but still.... If that actually had a fandom to embrace, I'd happily embrace it instead.