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[rusty_halo]

The institution of marriage is pretty stupid. But intolerance sucks.

Still feeling like complete shit over the Angel cancellation.

I am completely disgusted with some of the haughty, condescending, lectury responses that I've seen. You're glad the show is over? You don't like fan campaigns? Fine, don't participate. But that doesn't make you a better person than I am. Get off your high horse and stop acting like you're superior to those of us who care.

[rant directed only to those who are acting snooty, not to those who just don't care for whatever reasons]

I wasn't particularly enjoying Angel this season. I'm still completely disgusted that it was cancelled. A bad episode of AtS is still better than damn near anything else on television. At least they're trying to do something original, to make people think, to break boundaries, instead of just appealing to the lowest common denominator.

It's fucked up that this culture venerates mediocrity. It's fucked up that passionate, intelligent, creative people either have to dumb down their work or face constant struggles and very little chance of success. It's fucked up that Charmed got renewed instead of Angel, or that The Cruxshadows and Common Rotation are struggling in near-obscurity while Britney Spears sells millions of records. It's fucked up that my high school cancelled the challenging, quality-and-art-focused Media Arts class in favor of the lame, propogandistic, poorly-produced Television Production class. That's just the way our culture is.

Anyway. I have barely slept all week, so I'm very incoherent right now.

I went to see Common Rotation in Connecticut today. A "living room show" -- they come to people's houses and play in their living rooms. It was pretty neat--I took the train up with soulmate815, we went to this woman's house, ate party food and drank beer, watched the band play in the living room. There were maybe ... 20? 30? people there. I suck with numbers. The band members were around and talking, which was neat, though I didn't talk to any of them--I'm content to enjoy their music, but I wouldn't really call myself a fan. Well, fan in the casual "I enjoy your art" sense, not in the "I care enough to wonder about you as a person" sense. Anyway, it was fun. Then thefangirl and her friend drove us back to Manhattan, which was nice, and it was good to hang out with thefangirl. (And it was her birthday. Happy birthday, again!)

Anyway. Then I came home, read Joss's message, and started crying. Stupid WB.

I hate watching fandom fade away. I know a lot of people will stick around, and there will still be a core group years and years from now. But a lot of people will leave, and it's going to suck. Watching my favorite writers disappear, watching my favorite websites shut down, watching my website become irrelevant ... it's all going to suck.

Also (inspired by a discussion with some people tonight about the politics of friending): If you want to defriend me, for god's sake, please do. I'm not going to have a crying fit or hate you forever because of it. Interests diverge, personalities conflict, it happens.

I have a lot of people on my flist because I want to keep up with their fic, btw, and I know that we have little in common and that they're probably annoyed or bored by my posts. Don't feel obligated to keep me on your flist; just post your fic publicly to make sure I don't miss it. ;)

Oh, and *hugs* to everyone who IM'd me the other day. It really helped to have people to talk to. I apologize for being slow to answer--I got a little overwhelmed a couple of times. But, anyway, thanks.

I just read this over, and damn, this is a schizophrenic post. Political, bitchy, sad, happy, sad, depressed, bitchy, grateful. Huh. Must go catch up on sleep....

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[zyrya]

*hugs*

I hate the reaction phase. We don't know the whole story yet, and we don't know how it will play out (in terms of speculation over the show being picked up by another network, or the WB making tv movies and the like), and all we can do is react to the horrible news. I'm trying to be optimistic about the show and the fandom, but of course it will all end eventually.

And I know there's still half a season to enjoy ... and the season has only just started here in Australia ... but I feel ghoulish watching it when it's semi-dead. Or something. I was totally spoiled for BtVS 7. I knew Spike was going to die months and months before we saw it on tv here, and I felt the same about that ... like watching a dead (extra dead) character.

(Sorry to shove this into your LJ. I have no-one in ordinary life to talk to about these things, and my LJ isn't fandom oriented.)

Have decided the best way to deal with it is to write more fic. Even if no-one reads it.

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[irfikos.livejournal.com]

I feel ghoulish watching it when it's semi-dead.

hee.

hi. pay no attention to me. this line just made me giggle... y'know... considering it's a show about vampires.

seriously, pay no attention to me. i shouldn't even be awake right now.

::continues hysterical giggles::

(i often have inappropriate responses to bad news.)

:-)

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[zyrya]

Especially when accompanied by the Spike's Hands icon. You ghoul, you.

So if you're in inappropriate hysterical giggles, do I get to slap you across the face and glare sternly at you and make a speech about how we're going to all get through this if we keep our heads and pull together? Or should I just head over to the WB and slap them instead? There's more slash in the first option, but I suspect more satisfaction in the second.

tickles you